SLAVERY, DOMINANCE, TORTURE
AND ALL IN THE MIND
2014, the year that is now coming to a close, has been
memorable in many ways and with many events.
Events that were long planned as anniversaries of world wars reached
their time.
Events whose recollection
will persist for a long time, and other events that were mind-blowing at the
time – but whose memory tends to fade as others equally bizarre take their
place.
One of the latter has kept me puzzled ever since it hit
the headlines.
Remarkable it was as we
learned of how three mature women had been held in a state of imprisonment and
‘slavery’ within a ‘normal’ house, yet who were free to leave and do such
‘normal’ things as shopping…
The women who had been held and ‘confined’ and ‘enslaved’
for 30 years, appear to have been held, not by physical restraint, but by the
mental ‘dominance’ of two other people – visible people - people who were
ever-present.
That in itself was almost unbelievable – yet now I am
going to try to take your ’unbelief’ even further…
Just try to imagine the same domination – ever-present domination
– domination that derives from a source that is ‘invisible’. Yes - invisible, yet having powers that are capable
of turning a normal happy life into sheer hell.
This was the situation of Morag –
a lady whom I once met and who told me something of her own ‘story’.
Happily married, with two school-age children, she would,
each day, see her husband off to work and send the children off to school – and
then would find herself ‘entering’ another world.
Her surroundings did not change, but the world of her
mind, and the world within her body both changed.
And these changes came as the result of the insistence and
dominance of ‘voices’ within her mind and ‘physical presences’ within her body.
Imperceptibly at first, as Morag began her morning chores
and housework, a ‘voice’ appeared in her mind – gentle, soothing, encouraging
and helpful. Relaxing to this and
getting on with he tasks, the ‘voice’, and accompanying physical presences slowly
became critical. Everything that she did
began to be criticised. The
disparagement and comments became more and more intense, moving away from the
immediate tasks into her general life – needling, needling - condemning,
condemning.
“She was not fit to be a mother”… “she was not fit to live
and continue polluting the world with her presence”…. “She must kill her
children and then kill herself…”
Every day, Morag found herself cowering in a corner of a
room with the curtains drawn at the windows.
Then, as the afternoon slowly moved on, the inner darkness
gradually lightened and the dominance
became less and less – and Morag was able to stand and open the curtains – and
prepare to welcome her children as they returned home from school. Every day…
Difficult to believe, isn’t it? I would not have believed it either, but for
the fact that for a short period in my life, I experienced something remarkably
similar.
That was over thirty years ago, yet the memory of those experiences still remains
very potent.
Yes, the memory is still there.
Normally, memories fade with time - diminish in
potency. Whereas this memory remains
because I choose to keep it ‘alive’.
Why? Because it
forms the beginning and the core of everything that I write – from my book to
this Blog.
I write to inform anyone who will read and who is prepared
to accept and be influenced by honest testimony – to inform them that
everything that I experienced then was created by intrusive ‘entities’,
‘physical and mental presences’, ‘spirits’.
Those words have a lot of religious ‘baggage’ attached,
and it becomes very difficult to speak and write pragmatically about the reality of such presences. Nevertheless, they are real – a reality confirmed
every day of my life for the last thirty years.
A
reality that has been confirmed by every culture that has ever existed and which has left
coherent records.
If you would like to find out how it was that I - this pragmatic
individual – this ‘feet-on-the-ground’ nuclear engineer – came to be influenced
in such a manner that he became dominated, just read on my Blog the Post that
is entitled -
“Oh what a world of unseen visions and heard silences….”
It forms the sixth chapter of my book
"Listening to the Silences in a World of
Hearing Voices"
which may be downloaded free at
Then, when you have read the Blog, why not ‘open’ the book itself, and
read Chapter 7.
Chapter 7 has the title
"If You Have A Thousand Reasons For Living."
In it you will find out just how my life – my
physical life and my spiritual life –
evolved.
There is so much to tell that
it would be impossible to present even a simple summary.
For some readers – for example, those who would treat it simply
as ‘just another book’ – the journey may become tortuous and tedious, and then they
give up or just ‘skip’. Whereas, those
for whom my writing is intended – the voice hearers and their carers – they
read it through and through, and then tell me what they have found…
And then I know at last that the years that I have spent
writing it have all been worthwhile.
Worthwhile when I receive an email from someone such as
Steve – forty-five years old, living in UK .
Steve has been plagued by malign voices for all of his
life.
He wrote - “… you and your book are the best things that
have ever happened to me – you have saved my life, by drawing me back from
suicide… “
And finally – to demonstrate the ‘dominating power’ of
these unseen, but physically present ‘entities’, let me tell you the story of
Ruth. A story that still has the power
to move me as I try to imagine the terror that she experienced – terror that
was created by an evil presence within herself – so evil that it drove her to
what could easily have been her actual death.
Aged about thirty-five, Ruth had suffered several episodes
of voice-hearing, which had largely been brought under control. Still, she remained vulnerable, and intrusions
were never far away.
Nevertheless, she was not greatly disturbed by a
‘presence’ that seemed to be ‘gentle’ and not dominating. However,
as it took more of a hold in her life, the gentleness evaporated and the aggravation
and criticism grew in intensity – as happened to Morag….
The time arrived when, having declared itself to be God,
the intrusion began hammering into her mind, stronger and stronger condemnations:
finding fault with everything that she did or thought, until Ruth was finally condemned
as not being fit to continue to live and pollute this planet.
SO!!! THERE’S THAT LORRY – THAT BUS…
THROW YOURSELF UNDER
THE WHEELS
DO..IT !!!
But Ruth quailed at the sight of these thundering wheels
and drew back….
RIGHT!! YOU ARE ON
THE BRIDGE – THERE’S THE RIVER –
DO..IT!!
JUMP!!!
AND RUTH JUMPED…
She went deep under the water, but then, when coming back
again to the surface, Ruth heard a vastly different voice – a calm voice – a
firm voice – a voice that spoke one word – SWIM… and Ruth swam.
The river bank was tidal and muddy, and she floundered as she
tried to walk – and again the calm voice, and just one word – CRAWL…
Ruth crawled, losing her shoes and all her lower clothes –
and in this state she arrived at the front door of the house close by in which
lived a friend…. where she was comforted and cared for…
In that calm voice – that firm voice – Ruth heard and
experienced what I had heard and experienced, and to which I tried to find expression
when I began to write the Chapter
If You Have a
Thousand Reasons for Living…
Yes! I had been
shown – with undeniable certainty – that the very direct opposite of the malign,
evil intrusions and presences do actually exist. Just as in the past, every culture has become
aware of the evil and malign presences, so also, and without doubt, they have
experienced and accepted the benign…
Often, the outcome has been the creation of a religion or
faith based pattern of living.
Deliberately, I have avoided any mention of religion, and
have not suggested that one should find answers there.
Eighty-eight years of living have taught me that it is
pointless and fruitless to draw upon ‘religion’ to further any argument. Each person has their own personal faith and
beliefs – or has none. Instead, I ask
you to make your own choices from what I have written, whether here or in any
other of my publications – written, as far as I have been able, without
exaggeration or hyperbole.
What I have written,
I have experienced.
What more can I say?
ROY VINCENT
ADD ON….
It is all too easy to
dwell upon the presence of the voice
intrusions. Far more insidious, and
possibly ever present, is the mute physical ‘overlap’. Try to imagine a not quite exact ‘fit’, so
that in every movement or reaction there is just the little bit of anticipation
or lag; of speeding up when it is inappropriate; of not being quite in phase on
a turn; of causing forward movement when there are obstacles to be negotiated,
whether by deliberate intent or lack of ‘skill’ it is impossible to say.
When
the presence is continuous, or frequently in and out, it can become positively
loathsome and one longs to be rid of it.
If
you have a copy of One Thousand and One
Nights, read the story of Sinbad
and the Old Man of the Sea. Sinbad,
shipwrecked and alone as usual, stumbles across an old man who asks for help to
cross a stream. Sinbad, in his kindness,
takes the old man on his back, and then when the stream is crossed finds
himself in a stranglehold, beaten about the head, made to go this way and that,
by day and night, at the old man’s whim, be-skittered and be-pissed all down
his back and generally befouled.
It is only ultimately by making some wine
from wild grapes and getting the man drunk that Sinbad is finally freed, and
one can sense the ultimate release as he crushes the man’s skull with a
boulder.
There have been many
times in my own life, when I have wished for that boulder!
2 comments:
Hi I am so glad to have found your blog and I have been reading your writing with great interest. I have an 8 year old daughter that has been experiencing voices. Would you be willing to answer some questions? I would appreciate your experience and guide. Thanks Lizbeth
Hi Lizbeth - thank you for your comments. Certainly I will answer questions if you contact me on my email rvincent50@googlemail.com
I have only just seen your comment, and may be a little slow with replies - I shall be 90 next month - but the brain still seems to be working well
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