HEARING VOICES IN MY MIND
THE DAY IT ALL BEGAN
To recall that day, I have to take you back to 1979 to give you a glimpse into part of my life. I live on a smallholding on the western slopes of the Lake District in Cumbria, and, at the time, the day began with chores that revolved around the horses that I owned then. However, at eleven o’clock, I always set aside time for personal reflection. I would sit quietly in an upstairs room that gave me spectacular views towards the summits of some of the Lakeland mountains, and there I practised a simple form of meditation.
Then something happened that was so dramatic and far-reaching, and yet, paradoxically, was completely devoid of drama. A ‘presence’ that I could not see, moved from the space in front of me, into me. Immediately, my mind was charged with another voice or provoker of thoughts; thoughts over which, then, I had no control and which were not initiated by me. In my head began conversation as between two separate people, one of whom was me.
I BEGAN TO HEAR VOICES
In the years that have followed and my ‘story’ has often been told, many individuals focus on the ‘voice’ or ‘voices’. To me, the most important element within that morning’s events is contained in the phrase “…a presence…moved into me.” Yes, a physical presence.
From that day to this, I have never been free from voices and intrusive physical presences. I have learned much and have written much – hence the book.
Entitled “Listening to the Silences in a world of hearing voices”, it tells you exactly what happened then and subsequently, and explains why I have never become ill as a result of my experiences. I have never become ill because I know, without any shadow of doubt, that what I experience is of spiritual origin. Yes, with absolute certainty – spiritual. I try to steer clear of all religions, and deep psychiatric/psychological theory, and write entirely with the mindset and language of an engineer – which is what I am.
Comments from a variety of sources serve to indicate whether or not I have been successful. A television producer said: “It is beautifully written”.
On ‘StumbleUpon’, someone with the delightful nickname of ‘Pervypeahead’ wrote: “He pours water over many unhelpful myths and writes clearly in a way that will probably save someone’s life.”
A mother wrote: “My son is in hospital on antipsychotic drugs. He describes it word for word like Roy. He has always said that it is a spiritual thing and not a mental illness.”
Anne-Marie’s letter says: “I want to say thanks for writing on the Internet about your experiences, I found it to be the only true version of what I feel happened to me last year. I had been looking for books to read on the subject, but found nothing useful until I came across your account.”
From a Portuguese film producer came: “I was very much impressed by your book, I believe both your life and literature are a truthful account of human experience and should be rapidly shared with a wider public.” He has spent some time with me filming material for a documentary about my life.
And finally, from a mother in India, deeply concerned about her son and his anti-psychotic drug regime – we had been discussing ‘spiritual’ alternatives. She commented: “Undoubtedly, many have gone to ashrams and been cured. But here in the heart of Mumbai, what can we do but accept the drugs – and anyway, the doctors terrify you!”
If anyone wants to write to me privately, there is a contact address in my book on line. The web address is www.royvincent.org where the book is free. Many prefer to hold an actual book, and recently it has been published in softback. The publisher’s address is www.chipmunkapublishing.com
2 comments:
Read Leviticus Chapters 18 to 22". I obviously knew that Leviticus was a Book in the Old Testament, but I can say, with almost 100% certainty, that I had never read it. When I did read the prescribed chapters, I found that there were elements that could be interpreted as having relevance to the debate. However, on re-reading the text to refresh my mind as I write now, it could be that I was being warned against …those that have familiar spirits…and …wizards…who, it was ordered, should be stoned to death. I shall never know! What these accounts should show, however, is that I was not exercising any physical or mental control over the pendulum, but that it was being controlled by a 'mind' that was separate from mine.
God used a donkey once to give a man a warning.
The medium (pendulum) was not the message. The message was the message. God was trying to warn you that you were headed down a dark path and to stop using the pendulum. God loves us and wants us to be free. Since you were driven by what the pendulum was showing you, God used the pendulum to show you your error.
The message was ignored and then you began to hear voices - the connection is exceedingly clear.
I am not judging you - I am calling it as I see it. Turn from the use of mediums. There is only one master and that is The Lord God, the Great I am who sent his son to redeeem us from the clutches evil.
I would not be surprised if the voices tell you to ignore religion and make your own spirituality - that is what they always do - that is what they want you to do.
2Kings 21:6 Manasseh also sacrificed his own son in the fire. He practiced sorcery and divination, and he consulted with mediums and psychics. He did much that was evil in the Lord’s sight, arousing his anger.
I am the LORD that maketh all things; that stretcheth forth the heavens alone; that spreadeth abroad the earth by myself; That frustrateth the tokens of the liars, and maketh diviners mad; that turneth wise men backward, and maketh their knowledge foolish; (Is 44:24-26).
I am the LORD, and there is none else, there is no God beside me: I girded thee, though thou hast not known me: 6 That they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is none beside me. I am the LORD, and there is none else. 7 I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things. 8 Drop down, ye heavens, from above, and let the skies pour down righteousness: let the earth open, and let them bring forth salvation, and let righteousness spring up together; I the LORD have created it. 9 Woe unto him that striveth with his Maker!
(Is 45:5-9).
I was only able to read up until page 6 of your online book. Hope to read further.
Thank you for your comment and for reading the book - I hope that you'll pass the web address to others.
You comment reveals the paradox of my writing - namely that if I had been put off by the second interpretation of Leviticus, I would not have had all the experiences of which I write - and the book would not have been written.
As you read on you will see that, contrary to your exprressed fears and the accompanying quotes I have been given a wide breadth of experience of spiritual intervention, from the deeply malevolent to the sublimely benevolent. It has enabled me to be certain that the intrusive voices and presences that plague the 'schizophrenic' are most certaily of spiritual origin - a fact that a number of my voice hearing contacts have affirmed - some with immense gratitude that the book has been written and made freely available. You will also read of the immenses changes for good that have occurred in my spiritual life.
The book is now available as softback from www.chipmunkapublishing.com
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