Monday 21 January 2008

UKAN ADVOCACY NETWORK POETRY ANTHOLOGY - MY POEM


Just over a year ago, The UK Advocacy Network, (UKAN), sponsored a competition for poets who had had experience of a variety of mental health problems. A selection of the chosen poems has been published as an anthology under the title:

“Greater Goings On… Than You Could Ever Guess.”

It is available through the UKAN website 

This is my poem, which was 'short-listed' -

Early Closing Thursday by Roy Vincent (1925 - )



It will make you much better, he said,
No, it won’t make a hole in your head.
The current’s quite small,
Hardly any at all,
And of course you won’t wake up quite dead.

The nurses, all gentle and kind,
Never told me that bits of my mind,
Would soon disappear,
That I’d feel very queer,
And not know before from behind.

Memories once precious to me,
Have vanished, no trace, all agree.
The voice of my child,
That amused and beguiled,
Was erased by the ‘cure’, E.C.T.

At Work was I then in disgrace
From this hole in my mind – this great space?
For I found, to my shame,
This face - What’s his name?
Or this name – Who’s got the right face?

Who began this outrageous farce?
Who decides to switch on and to pass
A current designed
To ‘repair’ this bent mind?
Do they really know elbow from arse?

Why ‘Early Closing Thursday’?
 


 Because it makes just as much (or as little) sense as

 ‘Electro Convulsive Therapy’.

“There is no theoretical basis to justify it. There is considerable criticism of its extensive use because it may produce permanent brain damage, especially losses of memory and intelligence.”
So writes the Oxford Companion to the Mind. For most people, the implication of ‘therapy’ is of some process that will aid recovery from whatever ails them, physically or mentally, and achieve it benevolently, without harming them. By what stretch of the meaning of words can a process be so described that actually harms the very thing, the human mind, that it is claimed to be saving?

“My mind to me a kingdom is,
Such present joys therein I find,
That it excels all other bliss
That earth affords or grows by kind.”
The poet, Dyer*, could not have guessed
What would be done to minds distressed.
This precious place with knowledge filled,
Shocked, drugged, benumbed - then killed.

(*Sir Edward Dyer 1540)


Read: “..listening to the silences..” Available free on 


www.royvincent.org 

I shall be grateful if you will tell others about the book and my website.

1 comment:

Mrs Mac said...

COngratulations! I have a poem in this book, too. I hope they get the book sorted out soon! I was hoping they'd be available at last November's launch. Did you know we'll all be getting a DVD of the launch, too?